Clicking on “Perhaps I wouldn’t have been so upset that he was so late to bed because he was high, that he kept me awake doing god knows what, banging around in the living room all night.” leads to Shards.

Clicking on “his book” leads to Songs of a Dead Dreamer (PDFDrive).

Clicking on “delete” leads to an imgur link.

Clicking on “Adderall” leads to Shards.

Clicking on Micke’s face leads to Stormen.

Clicking on “A subtle shift in the air pressure. The sky took on an unsettling green tinge. And because you realize what all that signals, the anxiety stirs, prickling your skin as you anticipate a storm.” leads to Shards.

Clicking on “I tried to call you, for Christ’s sake.” leads to Shards.

Clicking on “That the tabloids would catch wind and tell the entire country that our marriage was a disaster zone.” leads to Shards.

Clicking on “If you weren’t Axel fucking Lundén, nobody would want you. Kåre included. I’m the only one who wants to be with an ugly fuck like you!” leads to Shards.

Clicking on Axel’s Bathtub picture leads to Devastation.

Clicking on “I didn’t want anyone to know.” leads to Shards.

Clicking on the broken picture leads to Shards.

The source code hides Kåre's hidden texts again.

• Right below “But I’m not bearing the secret burden of abuse alone.”, he says “I do wish he had said something. I felt terrible because I had done what he asked, I never looked at that tabloid, I didn't question his claim that they were fine. Looking back, all the signs were there. He became a different person when the three of us were together. Quiet, distant. Even before this incident I now realise Axel had begun to withdraw from people, it wasn't from the moment of Micke's death.

Who can blame him for trying to forge on alone? There was no place to turn for help. Men, we're not supposed to be victims. The whole system is very hetero-male perpetrator oriented, there's no space for gay men. Which I imagine added a whole other layer of shame on an already burdensome load.

I could see that just telling me made him feel lighter, but he waited so long, instead bearing all that around until it broke his back. I could have helped sooner, if I'd only recognised the signs.”

• Right below “And that’s okay.”, he says “I don't remember smiling like he says. But I did sense something had shifted. He was speaking in future tense about himself. Possibly about us. I believe I produced a sigh of profound relief. Those words birthed a glimmer of hope.”